Okay, it’s Monday morning, and I’m writing this on my smartphone, so I’m not going to try anything too ambitious. I didn’t bring my laptop back with me to the house because, again, I brought home some music (sheets and a book) under the absurd notion that I might play some guitar or possibly “piano” this weekend. I don’t know if that was me being in an optimistic frame of mind or me deceiving myself‒or if, indeed, there is any difference at all between the two things.
In any case, as is presumably obvious, I did not play or even listen to any music this weekend. I barely did anything at all. I mean, on Sunday I did my laundry, getting terribly stressed before starting it that I would find the machine in use already, even early on Sunday morning, but thankfully that didn’t happen.
I suppose I got a lot of rest, which I needed, because I was still pretty wiped out from the virus or whatever that I’ve been fighting. I watched some YouTube videos of mainly British comedy panel shows, most of which I’ve seen numerous times already, and on Sunday I watched The Accountant again; that’s becoming one of my favorite movies. And I watched the Gallifrey Gals’ latest reaction video to Doctor Who. And I took a few moderate walks, during one of which I spoke to my sister on the phone, which is always nice. That was pretty much all the socializing I did…for the week, really, not counting interactions at work.
I didn’t read at all this weekend‒not a single page of a book. Nothing gripped me enough to make me even open the Kindle app on my phone, let alone to grab one of the books I have in my room. Last week, as you may recall, I reread The Chasm and the Collision. I also reread one of the stories from Welcome to Paradox City, and I reread “I for one welcome our new computer overlords” in the version that’s in Dr. Elessar’s Cabinet of Curiosities. They weren’t as fun as CatC, but they were decent stories and I still like them. But I didn’t feel the urge to read even any of my own stuff this weekend.
I’m on the train on my way to the office now, and wondering what I’m going to do in general. I keep intending to get back into some kind of better shape, so I don’t die a corpulent grimace of a blob of some kind. I’m working on it. I am walking some, trying to work my way up, and I do upper body training to at least some degree every day (except when sick…and after even a few days, it’s remarkable how much more difficult it becomes). I’m trying to adjust my diet, but that seems to be my most difficult hurdle; eating is one of those rare self-soothing behaviors that’s biologically reliable, and from which it’s difficult to quit cold turkey as it were*. Still, there are further interventions on which to work.
I’m not giving up on it. I have something I want to try to do sometime in the relatively near future, and I would need to lose weight before doing it. I’ve also toyed with the notion, in the past, of perhaps running a marathon some day. I’ve had difficulties with jogging because of my back, which has at times been sensitive to me running, and some chronic ankle and knee weakness, but since I’ve been walking my two plus miles a day just from and to the train station, I think those areas are getting stronger, and sleeping on the futon on the floor is probably also helping. Maybe I can gradually work my way up. I’m not as young as I was in college when I first got into serious running condition, but if anything I am more stubborn.
I need to have something to do with my time, and I certainly don’t “have a life” as the expression goes. I’ll try to get back to my medical postings soon, anyway, and I apologize for frequently putting them off. There’s the follow-up to the neurology based post and the discussion of sugar I first sort of introduced last Thursday.
I don’t know what else I might end up doing. I’m really rather rudderless now, and feel like I’m becoming more so as time goes on. I have no real sense of a future, just the endless trudge that is the directionless present. At least the weather is a little cooler down here for walking. That’s a slight boon. So much of the year it’s way too hot and humid.
Anyway, that’s it for today. I hope you all have a good start to your week.