Just thought I’d quick let you know that the video of the audio of Prometheus and Chiron is up on YouTube now. Here it is:
Just thought I’d quick let you know that the video of the audio of Prometheus and Chiron is up on YouTube now. Here it is:
Greetings, everyone. I hope you’re having a good day. This post should be relatively short, but I thought I’d give a few minor updates.
First, as those of you following this blog will already have noticed, I posted the audio for Prometheus and Chiron here yesterday. I think it turned out reasonably well, and the sound quality overall was a step up from Ifowonco. As I’ve said before, I think I’m getting better at audio production as I become more used to the process, but I imagine there will always be room for improvement.
Unanimity is coming along well—I haven’t been slacking on it, even though I’ve been working on these audio projects. It is, however, going to end up being rather longer than I thought it would be, because there are quite a few more things that need to happen before the story is done. I’m not bored of it by any means; quite the contrary. But I have been surprised by how quickly it’s grown. I’m sure the rewriting/editing process is going to be daunting, but then again, it always is.
I’ve decided that, from now on, I’m not going to stop writing new things (i.e., first drafts of stories), even while I’m editing older material—I’ll just set a lower target every day for the new writing during those times. For instance, right now, when new writing is essentially my entire focus (excluding the audio), I’m writing roughly three pages a day, five days a week (with two days set aside, one for this blog, and for my other one, Iterations of Zero). Once I need to get into editing Unanimity (after it’s been set aside for Stephen King’s recommended weeks-long resting period), I’ll plan to write only one new page a day, and then spend the rest of my mornings editing.
That’s the plan, anyway. Of course, we all know what Rabbi Burns (ha!) said about the best laid plans of mice and men and all that, but I’m not too worried about achieving that goal precisely, just in spirit.
Other matter, other matters…
Now that the audio of Prometheus and Chiron has been released, I’m soon going to upload the video version of that audio to my YouTube channel, and I’ll notify everyone here once it’s up. As before, don’t expect much from the video portion; it’s likely just going to be a still image of the cover of the story. I just find that YouTube is an incredibly widespread and easily shared venue in which to post something, including audio. I’ve noticed that quite a few people make similar videos of the audio of podcasts, for instance. I don’t know about the rest of you, but I often like to go to sleep while listening to a lecture, or discussion, or something of the sort playing on YouTube. I don’t know how well that would work with my audio—my stories aren’t really designed to ensure restful slumber—but if you think they might, feel free to play them, in either venue. As I think I’ve said before, I plan on creating audio versions of all my short stories eventually, and then—possibly—releasing audio of at least some of my novels, a chapter at a time. When that time comes, I’ll gladly take your input on with which book to begin.
There’s not much other news on the writing front this week. I plan next week to post an author’s note for Hole for a Heart. That will no doubt rehash some of what I’ve already talked about here when I was writing the story, but it’s going to be far from redundant, I think. Then I think I really need to get started on my series of explorations of my favorite antagonists from books, stories, graphic novels, comics, movies, etc., under the general heading, “My heroes have always been villains.” I’ve been intending to do this for a long time—planning it, you might say (see above about plans)—but it’s high time I put it into motion.
That’s about it. It’s been brief, as I said it would be, but I will post here also just to let everyone know when the Video of the Audio is up, so you won’t feel too short-changed. In the meantime, try to enjoy (in the northern hemisphere) the slowly developing Spring. As always, feel free to comment, and thank you for reading.
Here it is, now, the audio version (read by me) of Prometheus and Chiron. Feel free to listen, to download, etc., but don’t charge anyone for the privilege. I think I’m getting steadily better at doing the audio, though I welcome your feedback.
Enjoy! And if you do enjoy, please do consider buying the e-book on Amazon, here. It’s only 99 cents.
Prometheus and Chiron is a more or less straightforward horror story, and its trigger was also straightforward—so straightforward that you might be able to guess it without me telling you, once you’ve read the story. But I’ll tell you anyway.
One morning, in the waning months of the year, I was nearly alone on the train station platform, waiting for my usual train. The sun had not yet risen, so it was still quite dark. As I dithered about (most likely doing some writing or editing), I glanced across the track, and saw a woman standing very still beneath one of the electric lights on the other side. I looked away for what seemed only a moment, though it could have been quite a bit longer, and when I looked back up, the woman was gone, as though she’d vanished into thin air.
A look down the platform soon revealed that she had simply walked to the other end, for undisclosed reasons of her own. But her initial silent presence and subsequent seeming vanishment made me think about the possibility of a ghost haunting a railroad platform. What might have led someone to die in, and then to haunt, such a place? Under what conditions would such a ghost be visible? What if it were a ghost that only a certain type of person could see? This wouldn’t necessarily be a person with psychic abilities (as in my story If the Spirit Moves You, from Welcome to Paradox City) but a person who has certain characteristics, perhaps similar in some special way to the person whose ghost remains.
The story took shape pretty quickly from there. I don’t recall how long it was before I started writing it, but by the time I did, all the elements were present. I wanted to deal, of course, with the hellish experience of a spirit being trapped in one place, right where she had died, and the frightening fact of a living person finding himself able to see such a ghost. But I also wanted to deal with the much realer hell that both of the characters in the story exemplify, one with which I’m familiar on many levels: as a physician who has treated those with chronic pain and with addiction problems, as a sufferer of chronic pain due to back injury, and as someone who has seen friends and family die as a consequence of addiction.
The ghost-woman trapped at the station represents the classic, purely self-destructive individual that most people probably imagine when they think of drug addicts: someone who, for whatever reasons, started taking drugs and got hooked on them. I dealt with this tangentially in Ifowonco, but it’s central to Prometheus and Chiron. This ghost is a woman whose life was ruined—and ended—by her abuse of narcotics. Unfortunately for her, at the place she died, a supernatural force was present, one not merely destructive but actively malevolent.
Tommy, on the other hand—the protagonist—is a different breed of addiction victim. He’s a former Marine, a hard worker, a basically upright citizen and good person, who worked in the construction industry. Because of an accident on the job, he’s been left with chronic pain from low back and knee injuries. He’s qualified for disability benefits, but as many people know, these can be woefully limited in the relief they provide. To cover his cost of living, Tommy has to do at least some paying work now and then, but he has to hide that work from the authorities, so he doesn’t lose his benefits, and he has to treat his pain to be able to function at all. Unfortunately, the only available medicines capable of dealing with significant chronic pain are opiates…and they come with a series of liabilities, including increasing levels of physical dependence—and the risk of psychological dependence—and consequent, agonizing withdrawal symptoms if one is suddenly deprived of them. This is a terrible, no-win situation in which all too many well-intentioned people find themselves.
It’s this dependence on opiates, which he shares with the ghost-woman, that allows Tommy to see her, and that, combined with his good heart, makes him vulnerable to the danger he encounters.
The title of this story arrived after I’d almost completed the first draft, but it must have been percolating through my subconscious for some time. It is, in a way, somewhat pretentious, but I couldn’t help myself; it seemed so appropriate. It also risks, for those familiar with mythology, giving away the end of the story. I recognized that possibility but decided that the risk was worth it.
Prometheus and Chiron is shorter than many of my short stories, and it’s fairly concentrated and direct. Writing it was enjoyable—it almost always is—and more than a little bit cathartic. It allowed me to express some of the personal horror I experienced while taking prescription pain medications for many years while at the same time suffering through the pain that made them necessary. (It wouldn’t be too over-simplistic to say that those experiences were a large part of what led to the crashing and burning of my previous life.)
Writing Tommy’s character was a revelatory experience. Knowing that he was going to be going through some very bad things indeed, I named him after someone I knew—not well, but well enough to know that I didn’t like him much. However, as I wrote, I realized that my fictional Tommy was a far finer person than my impression of his namesake. This led me to wonder if, just maybe, the real person had aspects to his character that were also quite admirable, if only on some small scale, and which I was being uncharitable in not recognizing. I can’t give you an answer to that question, because I only knew the real Tommy briefly and haven’t seen or heard from him in a long time. Maybe, though, if we all knew the inner workings of other people’s minds as well as we experience imaginary characters through the medium of fiction, we would find at least some sympathy for even the most unpleasant of people. For me, at least, that’s probably a lesson worth considering.
Enough philosophizing. Ultimately, Prometheus and Chiron was meant to be, and is, a fairly simple supernatural horror story, and I don’t expect or ask for anyone to care much about it on any other level. I hope you enjoy it.
Hello, good day, and welcome to April 2018.
For those of you who might have missed my recent updates and posts: within the last two weeks, I’ve posted the audio for my short story I for one welcome our new computer overlords on my blog here, and I subsequently made it into a video and posted it on YouTube. The blog post linking to the video is here.
Don’t misunderstand the fact that the story is posted as a video. Like many others before me, I simply took the audio and added a single video image—the cover of the e-book, floating in a black background—as the video portion of the file. This is probably a relief for many; you don’t have to go through the misery of watching my ugly mug as I read the story aloud to you. I posted the audio story in both places and forms to make it more easily accessible, so that more people who might want to listen will find it easy to do so. It’s just over two hours long, but YouTube lets you start and stop videos in the middle, so you can pick up where you left off, which is convenient. If you’re the sort of person who likes to listen to bedtime stories—and there are, pleasingly, many adults who do—then you can set the video playing on YouTube as you lie down in bed and listen to it as you make your way off into Slumberland. I’m told, by relatively disinterested parties, that I do a decent job of reading people to sleep, and I’m also told (hopefully not just to spare my feelings) that this is a compliment.
In the meantime, I’ve returned whole-heartedly to writing Unanimity, and the first draft should/may be done sometime within the next month or two. Then, of course, the hard and crucial work of rewriting/editing begins, so don’t get too excited. Unanimity will not be available as beach reading this summer by any stretch of the imagination, though I do hope it will be out in time for you to consume it on a few dark, wintry evenings as 2018 draws to a close and 2019 begins. It’s the sort of story best read alone in the dark.
Which brings up an interesting, tangential point: I’ve noticed that, no matter what time of day I’m writing, even if the blinds are wide open on a sunny afternoon, I always feel like I’m working in the deep dark of a silent night, when everyone else is asleep. I’m not sure why that is, but it’s consistent. Many times, when I’ve drawn to the close of a stretch of writing and stood up, I’ve been utterly surprised to find that it’s daytime. It’s probably something to do with the fact that writing is like hypnosis. I wonder if other writers experience this.
In addition to writing about three pages a day on Unanimity, I’ve also started something I hadn’t really planned to do. After completing the audio for Ifowonco, I had originally intended to take a break before doing audio for any of my other works, but I’m afraid that I couldn’t hold myself to that plan—or I didn’t want to and didn’t choose to, which amounts to the same thing—and have already almost completed the first “draft” of the audio for Prometheus and Chiron. Of course, this is a shorter story than is Ifowonco, so it’s not that impressive that I’m already almost done with that draft.
I expect, given how interesting this process has been, and depending on how many people seem to listen, that I’ll ultimately do audio for all my short stories. This will take a while, even though I don’t have all that many such stories to purvey. But then, once that’s completed, assuming it continues, it raises another question that seems obvious to me: will I do the audio for any of my novels?
One thing is quite clear, I would not be doing such audio in single, whole-book form. I’m happy to listen to full audio books, especially during my commute, but the file size alone of a complete audio book, even a short one, is daunting. I can’t even estimate what the comparable video size would be, even if the video portion were just a blank screen. However, I haven’t ruled out the possibility of doing such audio one chapter at a time. In fact, that might be kind of enjoyable. I’m a bit nervous, of course, that doing so would expose me to too many imperfections in my prior works, but if I’m honest with myself, I recognize that collision with imperfection as a good thing. In fact, that alone might be reason enough to do it, even if not a single person in the wide world listened.
Of course, I still haven’t even begun my planned series of blog posts about my favorite villains. I haven’t forgotten (obviously), it’s just gotten pushed to the back burner because other plans have gripped me and seemed more urgent. I may, though, start doing them on a monthly, or perhaps bi-weekly basis, once I’ve completed my series of author’s notes on the works I’ve written to date, and that series will soon be complete.
Well, that’s about all that I want to talk about today. I wish you all the best, and hope that those in the northern hemisphere are at least looking forward to full springtime and the summer that follows. Do be good to each other.
Tommy—a former Marine, a part-time construction worker, dependent on opiates for the treatment of chronic pain—is waiting for the train home one evening, when he sees a strange, shivering, ill-appearing woman seated on a bench across the track from him. Her presence fills him with dread and revulsion, for no reason he can understand. Even after a month passes, she remains, seated in the same place, always visibly suffering. No one else at the station ever seems to see her at all. But Tommy sees her, and even dreams about her.
And she sees him.
Hello, ahoy-hoy, good day, and Happy New Year to all.
In my neck of the world, we’re currently suffering through a cold front/cyclone system that’s battering the eastern half of the United States with bitter cold and snow; even here in South Florida it got down to 45 degrees (Fahrenheit), last night, and it may get colder tonight. That probably doesn’t seem very impressive to anyone who lives almost anywhere else in the US, or in most of Europe, but it’s the coldest it’s been here since I moved to this part of Florida. Remember, I’m at roughly the same latitude as Egypt here, at least according to a map I saw online.*
As you know, last week we released “I for one welcome our new computer overlords” as a 99-cent short story for Kindle (and yes, that is how I’m capitalizing—or not capitalizing—the title). I’m very happy with the way it turned out, so I’ve already begun arranging the other two short stories which had previously been posted on this blog.
This brings me to an interesting point: As some of you know, I’d already recorded myself reading the short story “Prometheus and Chiron” aloud, for eventual placement on the blog, but simply hadn’t edited it yet for that purpose. Well, now it turns out that my procrastination has served me well, since I’m in the process of doing further editing of the written version of that story. I can honestly say that “Ifowonco” benefited greatly from that extensive re-editing process, and I think that “Prometheus and Chiron” will likewise benefit. So, of course, I’m going to need to re-record it, and will then prepare that new version for release on the blog. I’d like to say, or to imagine, that my subconscious was looking out for me in keeping me from releasing the audio before, but I can’t reasonably or honestly draw that conclusion. I think it was mainly luck.
In any case, “Prometheus and Chiron” is the short story that will be released next for Kindle, and then on audio on this blog, but it’s going to be at least a little bit before it’s available (though we are already working on a cover design for it).
Speaking of audio—I did a bit of ex temp recording yesterday, speaking my thoughts, stream-of-consciousness style, on the dangers of so-called Regressive/Authoritarian Leftism, and especially on the dangers of virtue-signaling, dogmatism about ideological purity, and the in-fighting, denouncements, victimhood hierarchies, and the general level of shrieking hysteria one finds these days in segments of the left. Quite apart from the impediment such idiocy presents to real, honest, classical-style liberalism—which has much in common with what might now be called libertarianism—and the contribution it made to the loss of the last election for the Democrats (and the possible loss of coming elections, for similar reasons), I have longer-term, possibly more disturbing worries, and I discussed them in brief…with myself, I guess. Specifically, I pondered historical occasions when such intolerant and dogmatic leftists achieved power, and how those occasions gave rise to such historical horror shows as the French Revolution’s Reign of Terror, the slaughter of the Czar’s family and the subsequent gulags and purges of Soviet Russia (and the conflicts between Stalin and Trotsky, which led, among other things, to Trotsky’s murder), and of course, the cultural revolution and the millions of deaths associated with Maoism. I’m not sure how coherent my speech was on that subject—I just didn’t feel like writing about it at the time, even though writing is almost unfailingly more organized than free-associated speech—but I’m going to listen to it, and if it’s good enough, I’ll edit out the hems and haws, the misspeakings, the false starts, and so on, and release the audio on Iterations of Zero. It’s an interesting experiment, in any case.
I do still intend to make use of audio in the future with some regularity, though I think I’m going to put the video notion on hold for the time being. Maybe someday I’ll make videos out of my eventual audio files, attaching them to pretty, nature-oriented background scenes, with flowers, and birds, and bees, and sweet little children. That way you can keep yourself alert by suppressing your urge to vomit, even as you listen to my riveting words spoken in the dulcet tones of my own angelic voice.
Believe me, it’s better than having to look at my face.
Of course, despite all these other projects, “Unanimity” is proceeding well. Things have begun to fall apart for the main characters, as it were—though of course, they really began to do that near the beginning of the story, but no one realized it until now—and we are approaching various revelations, confrontations, acts of violence, and ultimately the conclusion. I won’t quite go so far as to say that no one here gets out alive, but no one will get out unscathed. The book should be released sometime this year, but I’m not sure exactly when, yet. Much else is happening, currently, so my writing on “Unanimity” is going more slowly than it might otherwise.
Okay, well, that’s about it for announcements this week. I haven’t yet begun writing my various “author’s notes,” nor have I decided whether I’ll put them on Amazon, but they will be forthcoming here. Please stay tuned for them, and at the same time, stay warm everyone.
*Upon subsequent investigation, I have confirmed that Florida is indeed roughly at the same latitude at Egypt. In fact, Cairo is 2 degrees farther north than Orlando, Florida (30.04 degrees north, versus 28.53 degrees). By comparison, the city in which I live is at 25.98 degrees north latitude, which is just south of Okinawa, and level with parts of Morocco, the UAE, and Oman, among other places.