Okay, well…sorry, I’m not going to be picking up today on the rest of the sugar-based post that I mentioned and half-started yesterday. I also won’t be doing a follow-up neurology post, either. I’m actually just going to write a very brief dispatch, if I can do that, mainly to let you know why I won’t be doing those things I just mentioned.
I just really don’t feel well this morning. I was up during the middle of the night, but that’s not unusual; I even sort of felt somewhat clear-headed for a time. But then, when I woke up this morning, before my alarm, I felt somewhat confused and disoriented. This was not in any seriously alarming way. I knew where I was and who I was and what day it was and so on. I just felt vague and hazy and out of it, like I hadn’t truly slept at any point at all during the night, or had maybe had apnea episodes or something. I felt rather uncoordinated as I got ready for my shower and got my clothes and all that stuff out, but not as though I were having an inner ear problem.
Well, perhaps just a little like that.
Anyway, I got showered and dressed, though I felt like it all took me longer than usual. And now I’m waiting on my morning train. I’m going to work, even though I feel under the weather, because I already missed one day this week, and because last week the office had a poorish week because of the holiday, and yesterday my coworker with whom I share some responsibilities had to take the day off because he was having particular trouble with his back. I’m hoping he’ll return today, because I’m really not feeling great, and also because this is supposed to be my weekend off, after having worked the previous two Saturdays.
It seems I’m not the only one who is off kilter. When I got to the train station, a northbound train was just arriving (I missed it), and I thought I must have lost more track of time than I’d appreciated. But it turned out that it was the first train, the one I only catch when I really can’t sleep at all, and it was running almost 15 minutes late. And now, my train is running about 30+ minutes late, and the southbound trains are running late, and the next northbound…well, you get the idea. I wonder if there’s some computer virus issue going around that affects train systems and weird devices like me.
Anyway, it’s frustrating, because if I’d gotten here as early as I usually do for my usual train, I would have caught the delayed 1st train, and would already be on my way, instead of having to wait here, already feeling crappy, for a more-delayed train that will be more crowded because of the delay, as is always the case.
There are apparently a full three trains now expected to arrive at the Hollywood Tri-rail station, according to the tracker app—all late, but set to arrive within ten minutes or so of each other. I would frankly wait for the second one if I weren’t sure that it too might not be even more delayed than currently listed*.
Geez, Louise, I don’t need this on a morning when I feel like I do. I just want to lie down and go to sleep and stay that way. I hate this stupid world and this stupid life.
So, anyway, my apologies for being so erratic and not doing what I had meant to do yet on the requested topics. Hopefully I’ll be able to get a good rest this weekend, and by Monday I’ll be prepared to pick up on one of them. Meanwhile, I hope you all forgive me, and that you have a good weekend.
*I did end up doing that, since the app and a security officer confirmed that the next train was only ten minutes after my delayed one, and that one was packed, and all my usual seats were taken. Now I’m on a nice and sparsely populated train, at least, though I’m still quite behind my usual schedule, and that’s stressing me out. But it’s better than being packed into an overcrowded and delayed train.