Hello. Good morning. It’s Thursday again, and so it’s time for my long-term, usual, weekly Thursday blog post, as contrasted with my newer string of nearly daily blog posts*. Unfortunately (or fortunately), the reason for the daily blog posts has not changed—I haven’t yet again found any interest in writing fiction, whether on the two stories I have partly completed or on any other stories. I don’t know if I’m ever going to write any more fiction again.
Similarly, and also unfortunately (or, again, perhaps fortunately), I haven’t had any desire to play (or write) music. I haven’t even listened to much music, though that’s partly because of the change in my commute; I used to listen to a lot of music on my way to and from work. But I think I may just give most of my musical stuff to my former housemate.
It seems fair, since he made two of the guitars, and he’s certainly a much better guitar player than I am. I might give the one I keep at the office** to the son of one of my coworkers, who has ASD, and is probably a bit too young now, but who likes music, and on the few occasions he came into the office with her for a few minutes, he enjoyed strumming it.
I’m probably being silly and sentimental in thinking about doing that. Probably if I gave him that guitar it would just sit around and gather dust, or it would end up getting sold—which is what I honestly almost hope will happen with the others if they go to my housemate. He’s on disability (missing left leg below knee and other chronic injuries born from the same accident), so he can usually use a bit of extra money.
None of it is doing much good with me, at least. Even the thought of picking up and playing, yes even sometimes simply looking at the instruments, makes me feel queasy and dysphoric. That happened just now, for instance. It’s a shame, I guess, since I used to find minor respite from such unpleasant feelings in music or writing, but that doesn’t seem to work any longer.
On the good news front, a New Balance walking shoe that has always been a good fit for me, but which had briefly become unavailable, has become available again, and I have a pair on the way. It wasn’t even expensive, despite the name and the fact that some New Balance shoes have become as absurdly overpriced as Nikes and the like. So now I’ll have a total of four pairs of decent shoes (with inserts) in which I can walk long distances with minimal trouble. They’re also all lightweight, which means carrying them with me wouldn’t be an issue.
I haven’t even read any books this week, which is unusual. Kindle isn’t going to know what to do with itself! I don’t think I’ve read anything since Saturday, other than online stuff, of course—news and a few blogs I follow. I did listen to a bit of the audio-book version of Pawn of Prophecy while walking the other day, but the guy reading it has a bit of a thickish accent, and though his reading is in general good and enjoyable, it feels confusing; it’s a book I’ve read many times, and therefore I tend to hear it in my own voice in my head, and my accent is quite different from the narrator’s.
I was also listening to the newer, Andy Serkis narrated Lord of the Rings a month or two ago, but though of course he does a wonderful job—being who he is—he’s quite dramatic, and so the progress of the story takes longer than it does in other audio versions, so I’m caught between loving his reading and yet wanting him to hurry it up a bit so we can get to the next good part. Anyway, I have since been a bit derailed from that, but it is a good book to hear while walking.
It’s quite nice that, thanks to Kindle and Audible, I can carry a library of dozens of audio books and hundreds of print books in my pocket wherever I go. I still love the feel and presence of a real, physical book, of course, but even I couldn’t imagine wheeling along a rolling library of nearly five hundred volumes. And one can always, or nearly always***, buy a book one wants and take delivery of it almost instantly, without killing trees****, and yet the royalties go to the author just as much as if one bought a paper copy, and it even counts toward their sales figures, if that matters to them.
That’s pretty much it for today, I think. I may shift out from doing near-daily posts to doing a couple or three times a week, but I don’t know, maybe I won’t. Anyone who has any preferences or suggestions one way or another should please feel free to leave a comment below (NOT on Facebook or Twitter…not if you want me to see it any time soon).
Be good to each other and to yourselves.
*I almost wrote “podcasts” there, which is very peculiar, though I suppose they aren’t entirely dissimilar things.
**That’s the black Strat I played in my most recent videos.
***It used to be even easier until Google blocked the Kindle app from allowing in-app purchases. I suppose this is justified as protecting people from themselves, especially from unscrupulous app writers, and it allows them to Google as if they are a morally upright company, but though I admire their products in general very much, and they do better than many big companies, they do not stand on any very impressive moral high ground. Just ask Tristan Harris.
****Though, to be fair, the trees used for making paper are, I believe, from tree farms, and so more trees are planted as others are harvested. And once paper is put in a book, it can remain there, on shelves or in hands or various other situations for decades and even—in principle—for centuries. So, in a way, books may be a highly localized net carbon sink. It’s something to think about.