Hello and good morning. It’s Thursday again—the last Thursday in March of 2022, and indeed, the last day of March in 2022. Given those things, it must be time for my weekly blog post. Actually, those latter two facts are irrelevant to it being time for my blog post; they are merely trivia. But they give me something to say, at least, and “trivia” is not always trivial*.
I’ve not gotten much done on Outlaw’s Mind this week—none at all, in fact—partly because the story is making me feel kind of glum**. I like Timothy Outlaw, as a person, and I feel bad about things that are happening and are going to happen to him, so it gives me a rather unpleasant feeling, since after all I am the one doing it.
But I didn’t want to stop writing, so I decided, more or less on a whim, at the beginning of the week, to start work on a project that’s been “waiting” even longer than Outlaw’s Mind: My “light-hearted” fantasy adventure Dark Fairy and the Desperado.
This is a story that took its earliest origin in two doodles I drew—well, okay, they weren’t doodles, they became legitimate cartoon drawings, really, and they were based on two real people. One was based on a picture of me, dressed up as a western gunslinger type from when I had gone to visit Universal Studios (the one in California). The other was based on the Halloween costume of a friend of mine that I had met and spoken to online. Once I had the drawings, eventually I decided I wanted to think of a story involving the characters.
I had thought of making a manga about them, much as I had meant to do for Mark Red. However, though I drew many pictures of them—some of which I will have included in this post—and of other characters they met in their travels, and I even drew and colored the first page of a potential manga, I eventually realized that I don’t have enough enthusiasm for making manga to get me to keep working on one.
As with Mark Red, I’ve long planned to write the story of the DFandD as a book, and so I took that as my distraction from Outlaw’s Mind for now. I did, of course, post the next part of the latter story here on Tuesday, and will continue to do so until I reach the latest point so far, but I may otherwise take another hiatus from Timothy Outlaw. I think I’ve done too much horror over and over for a while, and I need to write something that doesn’t involve quite as much fear and despair for the characters.
It being me who is writing, there will, of course, still be violent and even sometimes “horrific” elements—even the main characters are dangerous people, to say the least—but it will have a much more tongue-in-cheek attitude. For instance, one of the people our protagonists encounter will be an extra-dimensional demi-god who calls herself Lucy; she is a huge fan of the Beatles, and she models herself and her universe on their songs. I like her, and I’ve drawn some fun pictures of her, as well, with hints of kaleidoscope eyes and all.
In other news, I’ve been trying to get into shape for my planned, or hoped-for, “epic” quest, and I’ve come a long way, baby. I’ve increased my walking time to over two hours nonstop, and I walked over six miles two days ago. I’m taking the train today (as I did yesterday), which forces extra walking on me and gives me extra time to write while commuting. I’m writing this on the train right now (though I’m unlikely to be on the train when you read it). I’m also getting a bike, and I may end up using that at times to get to and from the station, giving me even more of a workout.
Partly this is all an attempt to fight my depression, which is supposed to be improved by regular exercise. I’m sorry to say that it hasn’t been helping much so far; every day I have severe bouts of self-hatred and despair, when I literally wish for death. But maybe after enough time it will make a difference. If not, I can always try to exercise until it kills me. And in the meantime, I’ll get into better shape. Either way, it’s good.
Also in the meantime, I’ll be working on DFandD, which I may end up starting with the definite article, thus making it The Dark Fairy and the Desperado. Let me know what you think, if you have any opinion about which would be better. I don’t promise that I’ll be persuaded by your arguments, but I do promise to pay attention to them. I’d also actually like to hear what you think about my present diversion from Outlaw’s Mind to Dark Fairy and the Desperado. I don’t know if anyone out there has actually been reading the sections of Outlaw’s Mind as I’ve been posting them and might be devastated, or at least disappointed, if I leave another long hiatus before finishing it. If that’s the case for anyone, please do let me know.
In the meantime, I hope you all are as well as you can possibly be, living in a world dominated by humans. Honestly, I don’t know what most of you see in them. I guess, every once in a while, among seven or eight billion, there are a few of them that are pretty good, and who may even make it worth putting up with the rest, as the 12th Doctor said. I’m not convinced, but I’m willing to consider it.
*Though in this case, it probably is.
**I know, right? It’s unheard-of.