Okay, well, it’s Thursday, so it’s time for another of my weekly blogs.
I wrote and posted something on both of my blogs last night—a sort of incoherent, stream-of-consciousness thing that one couldn’t exactly call a rant. It was more of an…eruption, maybe? No, that sounds too violent and primal and impressive. Perhaps an excretion? No, that’s perhaps both a little too gross, and also a little misleading in that it implies the getting rid of waste matter in a way that’s beneficial to the organism. What I did was nothing quite so positive or so negative. Maybe one could think of it as a sort of cloudburst, in a sense reminiscent of the Pink Floyd song, Brain Damage:
“And when the cloudbursts thunder in your ear, you shout and no one seems to hear, and when the band you’re in starts playing different tunes, I’ll see you on the dark side of the moon.”
Sort of along those lines. Maybe. It’s still probably not quite what I mean, but I’m having a hard time getting at that.
I could of course just direct you to the posting here or on Iterations of Zero, but I woke up in the middle of the night and took it down in both places. I’m not sure why. Maybe I feel that though it said things I yearn to say and to have heard, in the end I think it will be worse than useless; it will be counterproductive, drawing exactly the sort of response I don’t want, and which will be ever more maddening…whatever that might be.
I’m honestly both conflicted and confused about it. I wrote what I wrote and posted it because I was feeling at my wit’s end—which is never a long journey for me, as I’m sure you’ll all agree. And honestly, I was just as much at my wit’s end when I unpublished it, so it’s not as though I thought better of the decision. I just thought differently. I didn’t delete it, though, and I may repost it at some later time. (I can, after all, hardly now choose to repost it at an earlier time.)
I’ve decided, at least for right now, to stop putting pictures at the head of these blog posts. I’ve been adding them with the rather pathetic intention to try to garner more interest and draw in more readers by having some interesting image accompany my writing, as if that really made much sense.
It’s one thing when pictures are there for a reason, as when a news story is accompanied by photos of the scene that provide context and clarification, or when illustrative figures are included in a scientific discussion. But if a picture is just something to appeal to the preschooler in all potential readers, to draw them in with a form of click-bait, well…I can do without that. This is a written blog (except when I’m sharing songs or similar), and writing is what I do on it. I draw at times in my personal life, but I’ve not shared any of my drawings here, and it’s not what I hope to do, nor is it my primary skill or calling.
Honestly, if people don’t have the patience to read printed words without accompanying pictures, however unnecessary or irrelevant, then I have no use for the world, let alone for such readers.
I may change my mind.
As for other things, well, Unanimity continues at a steady pace. It’s shrinking and tightening slowly as I edit it, and I think it’s improving thereby. Whether or not you would agree would depend upon your standards for what constitutes improvement, but since I’m the author, my standards are the ones that apply. Anyone who doesn’t like it certainly doesn’t have to read it.
I think that’s it for this week. Not much else is going on.